When I left my full time teaching job to teach online from home, I imagined I’d have plenty of time to spend with my children. That was one of the many perks of working from home. We’d bake cookies, sit on the couch and read, and of course in the afternoons we would have art and craft time. Once they were napping I’d get my work done. Sounds wonderful right?
However, that is not the case. Working from home, some days feel like a prison sentence. Trying to juggle two children with their individual needs, two needy dogs and a full-time job is simply exhausting. There are some days I look at myself in the mirror, usually adorned with some sort of food or other not so amusing stain on my shirt, and think, “What did you do?”
Don’t get me wrong, there are countless moments where I know I made the right decision. I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else. However, this transition has been one of the hardest that I’ve ever endured.
It’s funny, when I was working outside of the home, I always had big plans for when I could be at home with the kids. The house would be cleaned, dinner would be planned and prepared. Now that I’m here, it’s a daily struggle to get anything accomplished. Things that were once a part of my daily routine were taken for granted. For example, if I can get a shower in the morning before the kids get up, it feels like I have won the lottery. Sleeping for more than 3 hours at a time is something that I strive for daily. I’m sure once my three month old finds his rhythm and can go more than 3 hours without nursing things will get easier. But for now I just get up and do it. I know someday they won’t need me this much – so for now I try to forget about the housework that is building up daily and enjoy this time with my babies while I still can. I just had no idea how busy it would be!